What do you think?

        Do you ever wonder what people think of you?  Do you think
        it's even close to what you think about yourself?  You
        know, sometimes you look in the mirror and think you look
        real cute, flat tummy, good hair.  You're in a great mood
        and everything coming out of you mouth is pure wit.  But
        really you look like a geek and act like a jerk.
        I often wonder, especially when it comes to typing at
        people in cyberspace, if they think I'm being a sarcastic
        bitch and if anyone actually understands my sense of
        humor.  I doubt it, except for the select few, sorry if
        I've offended any, but it's not like you know where I
        live.

        As for how we look.  This is how I see myself:  I pretty
        much like my hair, but I miss it being down to my butt.
        Even though it annoyed me alot, I miss it.  I just got
        tired of it attacking me while I slept, ate, and in the
        shower it was like being wrapped in snakes.  I cut it
        after feeling so much guilt of covering everyone with
        strands of my hair on their clothes, in their food, on
        their toothbrush.  I shed alot.  So I got it cut, now it's
        still okay, but just more average.  I hate my nose, but
        refused a nose job from an uppity step mother when I was a
        teenager and decided to just live with it.  I don't want
        to go over all my features, that's NOT what I'm here to
        talk about.  Suffice to say, I pretty much think I'm
        average everything.  But this has little if ANYTHING to do
        with how others see me.  I don't have a clue how my
        husband sees me, but he goes "Ahhhh" everytime he sees my
        naked butt.  My ex husband says he still gets excited just
        being around me, needless to say, I'm not around him that
        much.  Hey, notice I wonder how men percieve me more than
        women?

        I've never really gotten along with that many women.  I
        think they think I'm a bitch.  I was incredibley shy in
        high school and the few female friends I had were known as
        sluts.  I think everyone thought I was a slut too.  But
        the sluts had more fun so :P on them!  I had the same
        boyfriend from my 10th grade to graduation.  So I guess I
        wasn't a slut.  But I liked pretending to be one.  Once my
        slut friends moved on and I became engrossed in my
        longterm boyfriend I really didn't hang around any other
        girls.  They were all bitches.  But now I wonder if maybe
        they weren't bitches, just as insecure as I was.  Wow,
        they probably thought I was a bitch too!  I'm NOT going to
        any highschool reunions to find out though.

        When I'm online, sometimes I wonder if people take me
        wrong.  You know how you see someone type something, or
        someone who broadcasts constantly and emotes and just is
        generally annoying?  I wonder if I'm ONE OF THOSE ANNOYING
        PEOPLE!  Do I bother people with my tells, and is someone
        really thinking, "Who does that Froggy think she is!
        She's always being stupid and licking people!".  I have my
        little send groups and generally I add everyone I know.
        Do any of them ever go "What the heck is SHE talking to me
        for?".

        I guess it comes down to this.  Does it REALLY matter what
        other people think about me?  Well, maybe if I plan on
        running for most popular onlne personality, or president.
        But I think my husband, son and family likes me and thinks
        I'm pretty neat.  They're gonna be there forever.  Friends
        come and go, but family will always be there to annoy
        you.  So nope, it don't matter what anyone thinks of me or
        YOU.